So I'm riding on a bit of a paperwork-high at the moment. This is a feeling similar to how I felt back in February when we were first out there. Anything can happen! And it can happen soon!
It's a nice place to be.
Liz emailed me today to let me know that the books are on their way to the agencies, and to let me know about some of the special procedures these agencies follow. One will want a phone conference with us to get to know us better, the other will be sending an acceptance letter to us once they've reviewed our application materials. At the end she signed off with the following:
I go back and forth on what I predict you will be matched with (right now I’m leaning toward girl).
I don't know why it surprised me, but it did. She's invested in us! I thought to myself with a grin. She thinks we're special! And then I started to wonder...will it be a boy or a girl? I haven't even thought about it, not for weeks. In fact, I've been spending so much time dealing with my own emotions, thinking about racial issues, and obsessing over financial planning that I've forgotten to wonder very much about our little one. It's been months since I've even looked at the cloth diapers I bought on a whim in March, much less practiced with them on my cabbage-patch doll. She was getting changed regularly for a quite a while there don't laugh it can't hurt to practice!! We loaned our moby wrap to my brother and sis-in-law, and even though they don't use it anymore I haven't bothered to get it back.
I'm leaning toward girl, too, turns out. We'd be more than happy for a boy - really we have zero preference- but thinking about it I realize that I've had baby-girl on the brain more often than not lately. Our girl name rocks, I have to say. But our boy name is also pretty super.
I've told a couple people lately that we're excited but not excited. Because really, it is impossible to maintain high levels of excitement for 6 months without loss of mind.
But, today, I'm excited. Because Liz is leaning toward girl, and it's not hot outside anymore. Because there are new profile books headed towards Georgia and Florida, because for every day of waiting there is a possibility in the wings, also waiting to find me. I feel excited, I feel like life is good, and I'm gonna go with it, as long as it lasts.