So - this is my 100th post on the A+A Adopt a Baby blog.
I had a plan for this post. It involved pictures of a certain baby and some sweet satisfied commentary from me about the symmetry of it all and how the sleep deprivation was all worth it and oh heck, who knows. It was going to be awesome, though.
So, scrap that. I can't write a 100th post that will be anything but the post that wasn't that post so I choose to bore you with some housecleaning type details instead.
1. Goodbye Liz, hello Marla. Our sweet Liz has moved on to managing the Thailand program at WACAP, leaving us quite bereft. Well, actually any sort of change leaves me feeling bereft at just this moment. Anyways, apparently someone in power looked around and realized that Liz speaks Thai and that this other lady, Marla, has actually adopted domestically before and some quite appropriate changes were made. I was feeling a little resentful of it, seeing as I can be irrationally loyal, but Marla was the WACAP person who actually saw us through this experience and she was great and will be great I am sure.
2. Back out there. Marla has assured us that she emailed all the WACAP matching agencies last Friday to let them know we're once again available to be shown and matched. Yesterday I decided I want to know whatever she knows, at least these first few weeks, as far as us and being shown goes. I feel like knowing other expectant moms are looking at our book will help bring some final closure to the Y chapter for me.
3. Georgia Agency feels real bad. V informed us before we got on the plane back to Seattle that we'd been moved to the top of their list. I'm not sure what exactly that means but from what she said it's the list for anytime a first mother decides to let the agency choose parents for a baby. I can't imagine that it happens very often, but V seemed to think that it does and she knows more than I do. So...that sounds pretty good.
And my brief philosophical reflection on this, my hundredth blog post? I no longer believe in symmetry or pattern in this whole family building process. When we were trying to get pregnant I was always looking for symmetry. If it happens this month the baby will be born on our birthdaversary! If it happens this month we will have been trying for exactly one year! Throughout this adoption process I've been doing the same thing, to some extent. It'll happen as soon as I start school. It'll happen as soon as we plan a vacation. It will be SURE to happen by my 100th post. Now I feel suspicious of my logic - there was so much symmetry in this match and then it failed.
Oh well. It'll happen when it happens. Or, more importantly perhaps, this will happen.
There. That's pretty much as jaded as I will allow myself to get. ♥